I'm so fucking sick of this, my mother and her stupid bullshit. I am tired of her not giving a shit what happens to the family. Letting an abusive, drunken asshole stay in our house? Not to mention we will get EVICTED if our landlord finds out? Why do I have to suffer because she can't say no to anything with a dick and a paycheck? I only have a few damn months left until I finally see my partner, and I will NOT let her get in the fucking way. I fucking hate her and all that she does to me and my sisters.
Drugs, abuse, debt....
Sick. Of. It.
"It could be worse, Shiv."
Fuck you, you don't think I know that? Isn't it bad enough what we have now? Why do I have to worry about it getting worse??
The fact is, it WILL get worse. I know it will. It doesn't get better. We always end up worse than we were before because she refuses to fucking grow up and listen. This is why I do not get my hopes for anything, every fucking time I do...
My world comes crashing down....
I'm starting to miss my old.. habits....